Recently I’ve been asking myself, what do I want? I am one of those people who like to learn to study and to teach. I love to travel, I love to hear the ocean, I really love talking to people. Hearing their stories, learning from them. And most importantly, I love God and I’m grateful for the gift of life.

Why do I say all of this? Because finally, I have discovered what I want. What really makes me happy and now that I’ve discovered it, I am a little surprised by how simple it is! What do I want? ‘I want to make a positive difference in the world’.
Isn’t that really simple? It is but it’s really clarifying! And now that I know what it is I want, I can see how my subconscious already knew this and expressed this. It’s in the simple things. I attend church at This Present House and I remember the first time I went there was because I was running late to go to the church which I attended at the time. But at that service, I saw they had an outreach and rehabilitation programme for prostitutes and area boys and a “deaf and able” church. There and then, I decided this is where I want to be and so This Present House it became and is. I didn’t realise it at the time but it was an alignment of goals, it seemed like they were making a positive difference and I wanted to be part of that.
I studied law because I hated injustice and wanted to help fight it. I hate to see others  cheated and not have a voice. I always teach and share what I know, because once something makes me better, I think everyone must know this too (its the reason I cannot talk much without talking about Christ, that’s the best most important thing I know. I have literarily lived 2 lives- BC and AC! Truly, AC has been more rewarding, more confident, less fearful, richer, more exhilarating!). I pay compliments to people, hoping to add more sunshine to their day. I accept compliments generously too! All little things, but all pointing me to what my innermost self wants to express.
Do you see where I’m leading? Though I had not consciously expressed it, my desire to make a positive difference has found expression in my very being. And the more I think about it, the more it adds up. I write to share what I know, I write poetry because it expresses the heart of me. I write my short stories so that maybe you’ll be entertained and leave your reality for a bit but more importantly so that you’ll learn something or confront something or be more aware- even if the “matter heavy for your mouth” abeg “talk am”.
So now I know the what? The next question is the “how”? And while that will be the subject of my next blog post, in contemplating my “how”, the story of the man on the beach throwing star fish into the ocean comes to mind. Do you know the story? It goes like this, a man was walking along the beach throwing star fish stranded in the sand, back into the ocean (they would normally die if left on the sand) and a little boy who had been watching him ran up to say, there are hundreds of them,  “you can’t save all” and the man picks up another star fish, throws it in the ocean and says “but I can save this one”. Hmm! My goal? Make a positive difference in the world, one person at a time, starting in my areas of influence. If I can make just one person see that the power is in their hands, that circumstances don’t define you. That if you don’t like it, you can and must change it. That fear is false evidence appearing real and you can feel the fear and do it anyway. That life is beautiful and your past only translates to your future to the degree that you allow it (I like to say, going into a car wash doesn’t make you a car). If I can make a difference in one life, at one time and that life is better, than I have achieved my goal  “to make a positive difference in the world, one life, one person, at a time”. Ciao! Leave a comment. Tell me what your goal is and how it has found conscious or unconscious expression so far.